Most of the time, I don’t even know what day it is.
I feel like this year has been a haze of Groundhog Day days. A lot changed this year, and they were good changes, but I clearly take a while to adapt. I sort of feel like I’m in high school again, and each day I am getting further behind in the text book.
This gives me a lot of anxiety, that I just keep inside. But I wear it. It’s in my face. So, in 2012, I resolve to smile more. Relax more. Let things go. Take more time to just sit and look out the window. Or do a puzzle. Or just not be in front of a screen.
Here’s what I managed to do this year that I am really proud of:
- Get both of my kids to school on time and pick them up on time every. single. day. NO tardies here, dudes.
- Now, this is not me, exactly, but I hope it reflects well on my husband’s and my parenting abilities (that I am OFTEN beating myself up about): We are told all the time by people at our childrens’ schools that they are both a pleasure and great kids. It’s just nice to know that people that we trust our kids with also think they are special guys.
- Started working with people I enjoy & doing work I love. Learning so, so, so much.
Here’s what I didn’t do, and that I want to do differently:
- Stop worrying so much. Life isn’t perfect. Get over it. What will be will be. Be here now. Blah, blah, blah. I failed. I vow to do better.
- Smile more. I think just the act of choosing to smile makes me feel better. Don’t you?
- Manage my time well. Schedule. Chalkboard. Whatever it takes. SCHEDULE.
- I feel like by not doing the above, I have not been the wife & parent that I could be. If I can get the above in order, this will be a natural byproduct.
So, I’m off now, to start my calendar. Goodbye 2011. You were wild.