Two weeks ago, I attended my first yoga class.
Now, before I say anything else, I’ll give you some historical information: For as long as I can remember, my neck, jaw, and shoulders have felt like garbage. Sore constantly. Soreness that leads to headaches, that lead to migraines, etc. Basically, I’ve felt the twinge of a migraine mixed in with a full-blown migraine a day or so a month-particularly around the first day of my period. Although I’m big, I’ve always considered myself weak, unable to lift anything very heavy, and just kind of a general bum. I don’t like working out, or exercise. I’ve been content to eat what I want, because food is awesome. I’ve yo-yo’ed back and forth on some variation of a low-carb diet for over a decade, and failed, because, like I said…Food is awesome. And I have been pretty down in the dumps, feeling like crap, and, well, generally terrible for years. And I’m not talking like, a year or two…I’m talking YEARS.
I’m also kind of (okay, maybe very much) a fuddy-duddy who thumbs her nose at all of this “yoga crap”, and thinks it’s all a (I’m being very honest here) bunch of shit. That is, until I bought an Amazon deal on a whim. I was just feeling THAT bad. Everything was bad: my attitude, my habits, the way I felt about myself. It was so bad, that I was crazy enough to think that this bullshit, hippie yoga thing might actually be something I was willing to try.
And guess what?
I love yoga.
I’m making it a priority to get there. And I can tell when I haven’t been for a couple of days, because the familiar tenseness and pain creeps into my neck and shoulders…
But when I go often, that pain is gone. Really.
And it has helped me to feel better about myself. And calmer. And stronger. I am nicer. I don’t hold my face in a pinched, angry way all. day. long. these days.
I started my period today, and with no extra medication taken, I don’t have a headache. This hasn’t happened in eons, even with a daily migraine preventative.
Within days of going, I felt the desire to start eating differently. I have been counting calories and losing weight, slowly…steadily. I have a great friend helping me who has been on her own journey. I’m so happy to have her knowledge and friendship as I navigate this new territory (it’s awesome).
I am happier and feel freer than I have in years. And I am just thankful.
I write this for no purpose other than this: Should I ever get in another rut (and I will-I am human), I want to come back and read this and know that on this day, I was happy, and these were the things I was doing, and how I got there. And I want written assurance to that future person that she can go back to feeling good again.